Multiple personality disorder (MPD) is a chronic (recurring frequently) emotional illness. A person with MPD plays host to two or more personalities (called alters). Each alter has its own unique style of viewing and understanding the world and may have its own name. These distinct personalities periodically control that person's behavior as if several people were alternately sharing the same body.
MPD occurs about eight times more frequently in women than in men. Some researchers believe that because men with MPD tend to act more violently than women, they are jailed rather than hospitalized and, thus, never diagnosed. Female MPD patients often have more identities than men, averaging fifteen as opposed to eight for males.
Most people diagnosed with MPD were either physically or sexually abused as children. Many times when a young child is severely abused, he or she becomes so detached from reality that what is happening may seem more like a movie or television show than real life. This self-hypnotic state, called disassociation, is a defense mechanism that protects the child from feeling overwhelmingly intense emotions. Disassociation blocks off these thoughts and emotions so that the child is unaware of them. In effect, they become secrets, even from the child. According to the American Psychiatric Association, many MPD patients cannot remember much of their childhoods.
Not all children who are severely and repeatedly abused develop multiple personality disorder. However, if the abuse is repeatedly extreme and the child does not have enough time to recover emotionally, the disassociated thoughts and feelings may begin to take on lives of their own. Each cluster of thoughts tends to have a common emotional theme such as anger, sadness, or fear. Eventually, these clusters develop into full-blown personalities, each with its own memory and characteristics.
A person diagnosed with MPD can have as many as a hundred or as few as two separate personalities. (About half of the recently reported cases have ten or fewer.) These different identities can resemble the normal personality of the person or they may take on that of a different age, sex, or race. Each alter can have its own posture, set of gestures, and hair-style, as well as a distinct way of dressing and talking. Some may speak in foreign languages or with an accent. Sometimes alters are not human, but are animals or imaginary creatures.
The process by which one of these personalities reveals itself and controls behavior is called switching. Most of the time the change is sudden and takes only seconds. Sometimes it can take hours or days. Switching is often triggered by something that happens in the patient's environment, but personalities can also come out under hypnosis (a trancelike state in which a person becomes very responsive to suggestions of others).
Alter: Alternate personality that has split off or disassociated from the main personality, usually after severe childhood trauma.
Disassociation: Separation of a thought process or emotion from conscious awareness.
Hypnosis: Trance state during which people are highly vulnerable to the suggestions of others.
Personality: Group of characteristics that motivates behavior and sets us apart from other individuals.
Switching: Process by which an alternate personality reveals itself and controls behavior.
Trauma: An extremely severe emotional shock.
Sometimes the most powerful alter serves as the gatekeeper and tells the weaker alters when they may reveal themselves. Other times alters fight each other for control. Most patients with MPD experience long periods during which their normal personality, called the main or core personality, remains in charge. During these times, their lives may appear normal.
Ninety-eight percent of people with MPD have some degree of amnesia when an alter surfaces. When the main personality takes charge once again, the time spent under control of an alter is completely lost to memory. In a few instances, the host personality may remember confusing bits and pieces of the past. In some cases alters are aware of each other, while in others they are not.
One of the most baffling mysteries of MPD is how alters can sometimes show very different biological characteristics from the host and from each other. Several personalities sharing one body may have different heart rates, blood pressures, body temperatures, pain tolerances, and eyesight abilities. Different alters may have different reactions to medications. Sometimes a healthy host can have alters with allergies and even asthma.
MPD does not disappear without treatment, although the rate of switching seems to slow down in middle age. The most common treatment for MPD is long-term psychotherapy twice a week. During these sessions, the therapist must develop a trusting relationship with the main personality and each of the alters. Once that is established, the emotional issues of each personality regarding the original trauma are addressed. The main and alters are encouraged to communicate with each other in order to integrate or come together. Hypnosis is often a useful tool to accomplish this goal. At the same time, the therapist helps the patient to acknowledge and accept the physical or sexual abuse he or she endured as a child and to learn new coping skills so that disassociation is no longer necessary.
About one-half of all people being treated for MPD require brief hospitalization, and only 5 percent are primarily treated in psychiatric hospitals. Sometimes mood-altering medications such as tranquilizers or antidepressants are prescribed for MPD patients. The treatment of MPD lasts an average of four years.
with MPD don't remember much of their childhood. I would describe
my childhood memory as being like a piece of Swiss cheese. I can't seem to remember anything about my earliest years before
Kindergarden. My childhood years from Kindergarden on there are
gaps in my memory thus the description of my childhood memory being like a slice of Swiss cheese.
Also one term not included was SO, or significant other. In this case it means that special person in the life of a person who has DID who sticks it out and stays with them.
with so much usefull information in it...!!!
To everyone out there struggling as I am:
YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I FEEL YOUR PAIN. I KNOW YOUR BATTLE. DON'T GIVE UP!
Until next time,
L.A.
I also want to say, especially to Tabby, and any others who are the adult children of a person with MPD, that I have been trying to form a group just for them- do please contact me! This is not be a group for talking about 'helping' the person with MPD, there are enough of those! What we need, and what I want to have, is a group for people who have grown up as the child of a parent (or other primary caretaker)with MPD, whether it was your mom or dad. I think we deserve
a place of our own to talk about our experiences and the difficulties, etc. of growing up as the child of someone with MPD- we deserve companionship and understanding, too! My mom died quite a while ago now, yet I find that her having been MPD really affected my life in many ways. I think it would help us all to have someone who can understand what it's like because they've 'been there' too! It's just not something you can tell the average person, even some whom you might consider friends, about... So do email me. I call the group 'Adult Children of Multiples.'
(first known as 'Ad. Chdrn of Multiplicity.')
Her father has since died at age 49 and she tells me she would like me to die too. It is so upsetting that i must keep my distance. with escorting she has travelled to Spain, India, Turkey and keeps vanishing and i report her to the police as i am worried for her health. any advice welcomed
I'm sorry to hear about your daughter, Janet. Try not to be afraid of her, though you definitely should be cautious. She is still your daughter, and her personalities are a part of her. Do your best to get her help.
There is actually a new personality in our mind now. His name is Silence, and like the name suggests, he doesn't talk. The main personality doesn't know about him yet.
Hi, I'm not realy sure were to start,or even if I should start, My wife of 15 years has, including her own, 21 distinct personality's, I meet the all on a regular basis,most days I will see two or three, if we have a day together such as at the weekend I can meet as many as 6, I won't go into how they were braught about, that's well documented. I adore them all. for now I can't procede. Please don't use my name. there arn't many people with that name. and it makes me too easy to find.
I'll try to keep this as short as I can.
The one thing I do know is that each personality has been created to protect and keep her safe.
most of them have had many traumas but have only retained the memory of one, the one that they have not been able to forget has been one that as a child they could not understand, once this trauma has been revisited and understood as an adult, without exception they have been able to move on.
We have now been able to release all of her personalities and they are all moving on and having a happy life. They are becoming better connected to each other yet remaining quite different, they all insist they do not want to become one as we understand it.
My wife is a very intelligent capable extremely sociable person whom everyone adores.
I could write pages and pages on this but wont.
I think my message to all is not to be afraid of your others, they are no more or less than parts of you that have been sectioned off to protect you from past events.
All they need is to be understood, loved, accepted and trusted. A bit like all the rest of us really.
I agree with you, people who have this and live without any problems, when they can handle their lifestyle and be supported by people around them should be left to do as they please...
But, by your speech, you seem to be an alter of someone, or at least a part of a balanced person (when there's no "alter" and "main", when they're just various different personalities with the same "level"), aren't you?
And, also, I read this because my girlfriend has this, but in their case they're about 10 for what I know. I know most of them, and get on well with them (although some of them are really scary, threatening my life/body all the time). She has had many problems in her life, and these girls (well, one of them is a man, although i don't know him yet) helped her get through all of that, and sometimes help me take good care of her, so I have to agree with Yuki. I don't want them to go away, and neither does she. In our case only she and I know about them, because they have an agreement, so they will not come out in front of other people, or,, when they are forced out, they will try and act like the "main" one. Most people wouldnt be able to tell them appart, but with all the time i've spent with them, i can even recognize them by their voice or their face expression. Biologically, they're all almost the same, only pain tolerance changes, and the fact that my girfriend usually passes out because of low blood pressure, and I have never seen any of the girls suffer that ^-^ But in the psychologycal side, there are lots of differences. For example, not all of the girls know how to speak english (spanish speaking country), one of them knows a little japanese, they like different stuff, and many other things.
But, something that is not normally informed, is that she shares with them a "physical" space within her own mind, you could think of it as a huge room where they all live when they're not in control of the body. There they can talk, sleep, play, and watch the actions of the one in control through a "TV". Almost the same that in a Manga (japanese comic) called "Change 123 (or Change HiFuMi)". That's how they got to the agreement, and how they know a lot about the other girls. It's almost as if they were different people living together.
There is romance, sex, and some other things going on inside there, even, just to show you how much similar to real life that is.
I have to say, it can be very tyring having to deal with this, but if you know how to appreciate it, it's a unique experience, it makes her so much more special than any other person...
(And it's also really helpful when there's a problem i cant handle alone with her, I always have someone to explain things to me and help me with everything, or telling me her secrets ;] )
It's very relieving to find this page and knowing that we're not alone.
well, @nic, as long as the other party doesnt have any tendecy to hurt herself then i guess it should be ok. Here there is one like that, leaving scars in my wrist(kinda awkward when people see that and think i'm some lost lamb in despair or just a stupid junkie). So keep the other party away from sharp objects, i suppose~
My best friend's also an mpd-er and he's doing fine with his boyfriend.
But of course, boyfriends or girlfriends, husbands or wives, there's nobody who could replace our alters, 'eh?
And i wonder. This is the longest comment box ever i've seen for an article, would it be appropriate if i continue to post? Or there is actually a forum? (the link below seems not right, though the title seems right). Ha3. Imagine. A forum for this. A group of twisted people.
I would like to know if she was a "normal" MPD "host" because of who the personalities were. No 1 was her mother, my grand mother who was deceased and had been long before I was born. No 2 was my mothers deceased sister, who died only being days old, and who I am named after. No 3 im not so sure I would like to say at this time.
Has anyone else heard of this?? I would love to find out more, was this MPD or a mental heath issue?
This caught in between stage can go on for 4 hours or more sometimes days.
And by the way, michael, the only safe way to get an alter back is hypnosis. The not safe , painful way is by experiencing the trauma back. And actually, i think, subs-consciously, they are always there for a reason. If someone is gone, then it means he is not needed anymore.
I agree with many of the people here that have commented, even when I personally don't have MPD, when they say that it is offensive to just outright claim people to be "sick" or have a disease when they don't understand half of what they are talking about. It doesn't seem fair and it greatly bothers me, but I will do my best to voice this to my classmates when I do my presentation.
Thank you for having this information up and I will be sure to properly site where I got it from. Also thank you to the people that are willing to put their stories here for us to know about and it has helped me to further understand what MPD does to someone.
Personally, I'd like to get to know most of the people that have commented here, even the alters, because you all seem like pretty interesting people. I'm also interested in learning even more about this occurance, even as a simple 16 year old high school student.
Aero is 20 years old now, from the country Nurolea. He first started out as Shadow Fox, just a fox made out of shadow, helping David (my boyfriend) with his fear of the dark. Over the years he eventually got a real name, Aeroxeph Desmond Markel. I named my fish after him =D. It has gotten to the point that Aero has relatives, and visits his country and used to be King of Nurolea, but he didn't like the responsibility. Aero can be tempermental, I can usually tell it's him when he's being grouchy. That doesn't make him a bad person though. He's very protective of David and I, like a strict father I guess.
And then there's Rani Cordova Delterra, she met David and Aero last year when David was struggling with school. She's an exchange student from Spain, and sometimes speaks Spanish to me randomly even though David knows none, and I'm like "what."
They live in a cottage by a lake, that's how David describes his mind. They all live together and no one else is allowed in it, because Aero won't allow it. He fends off bad alters to protect him.
I can tell them apart, they all have different voices and body language. David is quiet and sensitive, Rani has a mousier voice and is more feminine. Aero's voice is very deep and holds himself very respectably.
He used to be ashamed of Aero, and didn't tell anyone for so long. After he told me and I said it wasn't a big deal, due to the fact that I took Psychology and was understanding, it gave him more confidence and started telling the people he was close with. Now the majority of our friends know and they're all intrigued by it. His parents still don't know, we don't think they'd be very understanding. Neither I or the 3 of him don't think he needs help, Rani and Aero have been most helpful, and David wouldn't be the same without them.
I am multiple. Thank you all for sharing your experiences and ideas. My daughter and I have made a list of my alters. There are 19 of us so far. I hope this will post. I have tried 4 times already.
This seems like something very real and very difficult to go through. I'll be praying for you, and I know know know that Jesus heals and restores, there are no problems too big or too small for Him!!! Talk to a Christian counselor if you can!
Be blessed!
I hope that didnt sound creepy >.
im not sure if i have a MPD but i do know that I have 3 different personalities at the moment. I dont suffer from any memory loss what so ever and you could say i use each of my different personalities in different situations. Yes, they do have different names and mentality ages but i never really thought of them as a set age. Its really weird but you could say i create these different personalities and they help me live through daily life. They are different and distinct with different aims in life but i'm not sure if its a MPD or if its me acting cos i enjoy drama and acting. And also, more alters pop up when i face a deliemma and there's always one in power and a new one seems to pop up about every two years. By the way, i'm 15 so when i was 10, my first alter appeared, at 12, another one appeared and at 14, another one appeared.
I wanted to ask that if a person has too much loneliness, can she or he has D.I.D?
And, can someone who never been abuse has D.I.D?
Can D.I.D recover by itself?
Thanks for reading, hopefully you can answer my questions.
1) Journal. Start with one journal and see if you find any other entries that you don't recall writing. Read to what they're saying, or interput thier drawings, its their feelings and what's important to them.
2) Video Journal, this way you can see what they look like. Yes, its you but each have thier own gesture, facial expressions, etc..
3) Make them safe. Let them know that you will protect them and that the person that did hurt them will never hurt them again.
4) Talk to them eternally. Get to know them, they're all aspects and fragments of you, just displaced and once merged will still have all that insight to offer.
5) Try and get in touch with the children, with an excerise called left to right hand writing. Which ever hand you right with is the adult (or adults), the opposite hand is the child (or children). Ask questions like their name, age, how their feeling etc. Answer with the opposite hand. You will clearly see the writing and drawings of a small child (for those that don't believe it, its a metphorical excersise).
I found these to be very useful and do them daily. Since doing this form of "SELF" help (can't afford counselling), I've had less switching and less triggers, flashbacks and panic attacks.
He will from time to time go to his mom's house and spend time with family but that doesn't seem to happen very often. I see him/"A" about twice a month - his choice. The time in between I'll ask him why he didn't want to see me and I won't get a straight answer. He also just told me that "B" has been married for 17 years to one woman and "A" married a different woman just three years ago. He's afraid he'll go to jail for having two wives if he tells anyone so he's not really sure what to do about that particular situation.
I think all the bed time could be seen as depression perhaps? From what I've read he also had OCD. His lotions are lined up perfectly, largest in the back smaller ones up front. Same with his deodorants, colognes, etc. I watched him one day place a dining room chair that I had moved directly back into the original holes in the carpet that the chair legs had made. It was like it was irritating to him that the legs weren't placed back exactly as they had been. He makes his bed a very specific way with a special way for the corners of the bedspread lay.
I've been trying to be very supportive of him and have been reading online for two days now trying to find out what's up and how to help him. Sometimes it gets very hard on me though. Especially when he's mean and when he disappears on me and I don' see or hear from him for two weeks at a time. At first I thought he was a typical game player but now I know that's not the case. I'm trying to hang in there but there are times that I get scared because I don't know if "B"/The Mean One would hurt me or not.
It feels a little better now to be able to get it some of this out. Thanks for listening.
I'm just really confused. Should I go on with this relationship I'm having with the alter? Or should I stop?
I know I've been rambling about this, i just wanted to touch on some different aspects of complexity without getting too deep. Hopefully this post offers some insight about how real this condition is. This from a man who's spent an entire lifetime loving his elementary school sweetheart with MPD.
1) Every Thursday or Sunday on prayer time he switched himself as "Sai Baba" (one famous Indian Saint) and then he started to praying in Urdu (different from our lenguage). Not one Baba comes into him there are many other Baba's also into him.
2) He ask family members life especially my sister in law. She has a problem of Hysteria. Everytime these personalities used to say good for her as I understand he loves his daughter very much. If during a week any body in family has done something wrong with her these personality start to angry in behalf of my sister in law. These personalities used to say we should get proud that we come at your home its god blessing and then start to self appraisal. Rather then my father in law's nature is very different. Mostly he remains calm sometimes he become angry but normally he is calm and jolly in nature.
3) These personalities remain within him around 30 to 60 mins after that my father in law didn't remeber anything what happended. Yes he knows that Baba came but what happened after that completely forget.
4) One more thing under these Baba's personality he/they used to give solution of our problems but once solution not works they didn't take any responsibility for that and all things blame to God.
5) Sometimes my father in law's mother also came into him, and he started like talking in our lenguage in lady voice. This happen only when Baba's solution not works Father in law's mother came if we blame on him.
I understand all these is psychiatry problems of multiple personality. Can you please brief.
I have a strange question... one of MY blood relatives revealed to me that she hears a male and female voice talking to her... she further described it as "seeing the voice" and has admitted to seeing hallucinations.
I asked my wife and the alters what they thought. The committee thinks that my relative DOES NOT have alters. We are thinking that she is instead schizophrenic.
Does anyone know about "seeing voices"? The male voice told my relative in what month she was going to die. I am worried... Its an odd turn of events.. The alters are the NORMALS in my life!!!
I notice that when he 'switches', his accent and voice depth of voice also changes sometimes. He will be quiet and shy or argent and cocky, sometimes dramatically emotional. If we are talking and something bothers him in the conversation or we get too close to something he doesn't feel comfortable talking about, his personality changes as well as his accent and voice. It can get really confusing sometimes. He also seems forgetful and doesn't remember conversations, or parts of conversations, we have had, and I have to tell him to go back and look at the emails he has sent me. He often avoids any company and locks himself away in his place. He has had some horrific abuse in his life from childhood and has been in therapy most of his life. I'm worried for him but am not sure what I can do. I'm almost ready to put a distance between us as his behavior can be very hurtful and is causing me stress in my own life.
Prim: we call him prim, short for primitive. My husband had thought that he was simply all primitive and simple in the beginning, only wanting basic needs. But it terns out that prim is more intelligent than all three of them. His most dominant trait is actually how protective he is. He would kill someone if he thought someone he cared about was threatened. Other times he is just really lazy. (i compare him with a lion really) Sometimes when he comes out my husband wont remember anything that had happened. Although prim has the ability to share memories with my husband. Prim actually came out during my husbands childhood i have found out. He had blacked out and prim had really beat up this one kid who had insulted his mother... other than that he hasnt really come out much before my husband started dating me. The way i can tell when prim is out is by his tone of voice mostly. It is slightly deeper. Also his eyes seem to change, but i cant pinpoint how. And his posture will change. Although sometimes prim will act silly and seem more like my husband, he's not and it annoys him when i get them confused. But prim loves me probably as much as my husband does and i love all three about the same. We all pretty much coexist nicely. They don't bother my husbands life at all.
Blood: Blood short for blood thirsty. and in the beginning he was just that. He had constant thoughts about how he could hurt people, simply because he liked it. This one scared my husband much more than prim, even though he wasn't as strong as prim. He was at first reluctant to even let me meet him. When i did finally meet him though i was so intrigued to find out that he has an irish accent. He has choked me before, but prim stopped that right when it happened. (prim kind of knocked him out from the inside and took over) But blood has changed after being out more often. He's not even really blood thirsty at all anymore. Even his accent is not so prominent, although its there. I fear that he is blending, and might just disappear. I really don't want him to. (minus the fact that he is prone to dangerous acts, he is really fun to be around) Two days ago he decided to go "dormant" to see if maybe rest will help restore his former self. I hope it does. I'm not really scared of him at all because i know prim will protect me. (plus i know that he's started loving me too, even if its not as strong as the other two)
Mitch
May Memories be the guide through life
personality disorder
I didn't know their was so many people out there dealing with this or others living with someone who has MPD. thank you for the info. I live with someone who deals with this and was born with it than it got worst with different things that happened in her live. when stress is caused sometimes it causes more personalities. she also has P.T.S.D -- post Traumatic stress disorder. the two together is not easy for her or us who know and love her which we try to keep it a secret from many people because if you share with the wrong person they leave or want to put her in a hospital and she doesn't need a hospital because most of the time she is the sweetest and very helpful to all around her. when she has an episode which is were one of her many alters or many of her alters show themselves can cause a small problem although it is never physical.
I live in Belgium now and im 45 with a 30 year old girlfriend that lives with me and i must say that all the things i have read here is what i live with every few days .
And yes she told me that she will never forgive her father but never said why .
I since then tried my best but my friends and family ask me to stay away from her but i do love her and im scared .
My respects,
Patrick
I've never been diagnosed with anything or seen anyone specifically about it, I did have brief counciling years ago but I told them nothing of anything to do with any of my - unsure how to describe them, voices, alters, dellusions?.
Basically for years, I can't pinpoint when with most of them its like there is/are people coming and going in my head, sometimes I can hear them all at once, sometimes one sometimes none of them, but it seems they have influence or control sometimes over my thoughts and actions, sometimes speaking outloud through my body to me, on rare occasion taking over. Sometimes people will mention things I've said/done and don't remember. Jodie- deals with some every day things I cant, Katie-new to my awareness- hyper always after next high adgitated easily, Ana-new believes something needs to be fixed I don't know what, Meadow- protective speaks through me rarely then dissappears for ages, Rachel-homosuidal, Claire- hates me insulting recently stronger taken pills and others that haven't got names more just different thought processes
I also sometimes have hallucinations visual-bugs usually, and audio but these don't occur very often though sometimes I find it hard to tell which are real and aren't, I feel depressed most of the time but can be really high at others x
I want to know opinions on if you think I have DID or another pyschological condition, I've believed for years I have mild mpd but seeing a docu on bbc including a girl who has such clearly defined personalities when mine aren't and mine seem to have more of an awareness of what ive been doing has confused me as i think it must be something else as im not as clearly defined in them as her
Some parts of me want to see a pychiatrist, other parts of me don't through fear, hate of them etc and myself I am worried what they will to do with me, I'm in my final year of uni starting to get some major carrer opportunities and I simply cant afford to be sick like that or take time out etc I do not the sort of thing you can jump right back into and I don't want people thinking its for attention etc as i've never mentioned them to anyone though a few may of caught me in one, idk even if I do have MPD, DID, Sctzophriena and or anything else wrong with me x just don't know what to do, the sleep thing has been a real pain lately I've mini passed out for a few minutes about 5 times within the last hour before that full of energy and alert mostly, my mind seems to be more active with the more research etc into this x but its 7am and I've not slept, atm I'm starting to get a sleepy spell again but I know I'm probably still going to be awake for the next foreseeable few hours :/
I am thankful to find this article and all of you willing to share your experiences with DID.
I recently went through a horrible break up with a man that I believe has DID or at least dissociative behavior.
I will start by saying he was abused and neglected as a child. He admitted to one incident of sexual abuse when he was a teenager but when I spoke with an ex of his she said it happened over the course of 7 years, from age 7-14. She also felt he displayed signs of DID when she dated him. I had the first indication something was wrong about a year into our 3 year relationship. We were having dinner at a restaurant and he began talking and arguing with himself. He did this under his breath so it didn't really cause a scene, but his face and body language changed. I felt right away that something wasn't right and I instantly despised this other personality that I thought to be hostile and cold-hearted. I felt many times like he was disconnected to what was happening at times. He would not remember certain things, he has virtually no memory of receiving love as a child or being comforted and cared for, even though he did receive great care from his grandmother after his mother abandoned him as a toddler. He would do things to me and feel badly about them after, having no explanation to why he did them. He could be so sweet and romantic, telling me really nice things and then when I tried to inquire about his past would become mean, loud, and hostile. It didn't matter where we were, he would scream at me in public and say demeaning things with everyone staring at us and he didn't seem to care. But the sweet side of him was often embarrassed by public outbursts. He broke up with me recently because I confronted him about talking to other women online. He again became extremely hostile and angry, saying things like "you just had to keep pressuring me for information! You just couldn't let it go" When he calmed down he was completely cold and removed from the entire relationship. He told me he doesn't know what type of mindset he was in right now and that it was best we break up. He added a bunch of other demeaning comments like I repulse him and he doesn't love me anymore.
Anyway sorry to ramble on but I am just looking for some insight. I have suspected he had this for quite awhile and reading these posts I recognize much of the behavior that has been described. If anyone is willing to talk and provide some clarity
I would appreciate it!
No, it doesn't sound like you have a 'personality disorder' (did you mean a dissociative disorder?). It mostly just sound like you are developing your personality. If you're an adolescent, then this is all the more common. If you are older, then its not as common, but it still happens. DO you experience any memory loss during or before these changes? If you do, then maybe its something to look into. when you change your clothes/preferences, do you feel disconnected from yourself, as though you were watching your actions from outside your body? That could be worrying. Mostly, it boils down to: are these changes voluntary? Do you wake up in the morning thinking "Country music sucks. I think I'll start listening to '80s music now."? All in all, I think you probably should look up 'Identity Formation' or 'Identity Moratorium'. What you're going through sounds completely normal, and those should explain thee changing better than if you had DID or another disorder ^_^
Oh, and I would like to express my extreme awe in the wake of all these posts by people who have/know someone with DID. I've been researching it because I want to write a story where a person has DID, but I didn't know all that much about how the disorder appears or how it manifests, although I know a lot about it. I offer my extreme thanks to all you lovely people, as well as to the author of this article, because it was beautifully written, simple, to the point, and informative. The vocabulary overview was extremely handy.
Thank you everyone!
I was forced to report the assaults to the police and am now living with my parents. He's getting therapy now but no one in my family believes me when I tell them that the person who assaulted me was "someone else". They had a completely different tone of voice, they had different body language, different word choice -- and I looked in his eyes and it just..wasn't the same person I knew... But my family insists that this is just a form of manipulating me.
I really, really care for my boyfriend and I am trying to do everything I can to support him but because of the circumstances, I'm not really able to BE there for him physically (due to the fact that his alter is violent and I have no idea when a switch might occur) does anyone, ANYONE AT ALL have any experience with a violent alter that can give me advice? The core personality is such a wonderful person and I hate to see him struggling with this totally different other person inside of him -- especially one that has hurt people he cares about.
I just don't know how to get through this or how to help him and there is SO LITTLE information available about this topic...
This has been a nightmare, especially when I want nothing but my partner and our daughter.
I was placed on medication which worked for a bit and also went through the whole psycology route but they never really offered anything constructive.
I have found that just being more aware and responsive to my changes in mood and memory loss, I have been able to keep him at bay but I wouldn't have been able to do it without the support of my partner.
I just don't see why I should pay the price for him being a prat.
Is there anyway of just killing him off?
thanks for reading and any help is apprecited.
Please help I suffer from MPD and my career is adiment that I can control when my alters take over but I can't seem to get that control and it's really upsetting me...
Days he think of someone else that never around and now he calling me aunty we not even related and it feels weired. I have no idea what to do. All I can do is just be his friend .
I'm a 16 years old girl and I think I have MPD. Sometimes I talk to myself to a girl named Shady. She says she will help me but I don't really like her because she's very violent. One time I hit my brother really hard because he hit me too. But I didn't rember anyting. She claims she did it and after this, another person named Robin ( a teenage boy) said that Shady is a bad girl.
Do I have MPD ??? And if I do, do I have to go to a doctor ?? Please help me !
But even so, I want a friend who truly understood me, and if I really do have MPD, I've now got one. I'm both really excited to not be lonely anymore, but scared because I may have a mental disorder. I'm not really sure what to think anymore.
I honestly don't know what's going on with me. I have no recollection of many pieces of my mind. I often hear voices talking to me inmy head and I tend to get lightheaded.
I've had this disorder since I have a traumatic experience of bullying and overall stress from untrust-worthy people that manage to embed this personality to me. I'm what I could explain as shy,naive,merciful(Too forgiving), quiet and very kind but my alter ego is a complete opposite, as her characteristic is malevolent,savage,heartless,cruel, confident,and unmerciful. We never fully understand ourselves since she has a different perspective. I've been silent due to traumatic continues bullying and I've developed anxiety from all the times I've been bullied that also resulted in unlocking this opposite me. I never fully liked my opposite as she's very dominating and vengeful that on multiple times that I lost control and blank out, I only saw glimpse of how she has no problem in hurting people even innocent that only got wrong in their path when she was controlling me. I normal also forgets many memories and have numerous problem when remembering.
My alter ego never get locked in prison due to her diabolic plans and acts that she used my 'angelic charms and goody attitudes' to escape punishment.
Yes, having an alter ego like an evil and psychotically derange one have a few benefits like I felt only numb when I got scraped in a rusty sharp chair that is contaminated but I never noticed the pain from it until those teachers and classmates also my bullies gasped and whispered of having blood dripping but nonetheless I haven't felt it as I felt blindly overpowered by hate which is Ironically what makes my alter ego stronger. Also the other benefits it that she's smarter then me that usually helped me but that is rare to happen for she only does help me when we are getting underestimated or joked by others. She is also confident yet arrogant when she does appear and what unnerve me is she never shows a true smile rather a dark derange smirk and our attributes and physique are also different. What I am afraid of is she's constantly showing overprotectiveness and possessiveness of me. She has no problem in terrifying others either with her used of her abnormal strength, deeper threatening voice that never stops making threats and various more.